Secrets For the Dead

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 04:36:49 GMT

oh yes and i must say sorry to the ladys and men that work a hooters, because of ian that that urienal is stained.. no nucks, but i will say we will rock you is our song

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 04:33:21 GMT

so maybe broken isnt easly fixed, haha what do i know im in pa, sorta just floating sorta wishing i didnt have to leave, im having alot of fun thou its hard seeing my friends, ha alot of things are screwed up right now, il get out of it some way or another lol

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 21:13:41 GMT

this is killing me more than anything ...by the end its gonna kill me forsure

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 20:54:30 GMT

i hate the shore i really hate alot of people down here i wanta get away from everything and stop lying about how i like it down here...oh well screw it i remember how i used to like it but not anymore

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 23:35:55 GMT

um yah im bored and im waiting to get called back from the miss's, worked on music it sounds goood i might want to go see the movie or go to ellies or even just watch a movie at home. but my aunts are comin down for my moms b-day which was yesterday, i gave her my pink Fearbefore shirt cause she has been buggin me for it and il also get her some candy cause im just sweet like that, ha alrite, im tired and gonna go find my baby later

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 22:18:14 GMT

im in flordia, i have been crazy sick, its been good except the sick part, im still sick but feeling better but yah and i love ellie<3 shes the greatest the best and the most amazing

!jack nasty!

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:47:24 GMT

ok so lets see i woke up wake to early and yahh so i got ready for school and left and i went to 1st block ....and mrs harte was not there ...ok so that made me and wally do a happy dance, and she left us busy work which was fine by me, so then i went to mr boggs's class and well we had a test normaly this would suck big dick but i got an A on my test! like holy shit it was like a good second block. then to lunch no special same of shit for food, then went to mrs savage wells class and well she wasnt there and we didnt have a teacher! sweet holy of a hat trick !! we sat around in the libray and i looked at alot of books and searched for the book the life of pi but it was out soooooo onward to the next class well she didnt feel like doing anything and was extrememly tired sooooo HOLY shit she got her projector workin poped in crouchin tiger hidden dragon and i layed on the floor and watched it it was very amusing and bam the day was done i came home to get my hair cut but momma wasnt home so maybe wenesday i hope and tomorrow im gonna go see ellies game (with my aquired skill from last season i now will yell and scream with the rest of the mothers ! haha its a funny sight to see yes cant wait maybe il paint ellies number on my belly and jump around like a monkey haha how about no lol but u never know <3

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 05:54:33 GMT

alrite so im home which is good, today i drove to pocomoke lookin for the new sum 41 cd (well i guess its someone old now but yah ) and i got it and then i walked around and just hung out and i decided to drive eastward and go see the show in ....um berlin i guess u would call it that, so i drove and i had mapquest with me and then i got majorly lost turned around and found my way to sherwood forest community with help from carter and devon, and then i got behind them and we made it to the reck hall, and i proudly paid my 7 bucks and strolled on in i saw some people that i knew but noone worth much of my time except to just give a hello, and a how are u doin, so i hung around this band played and they were old school rock, some nice to start with, then ohmyjosh played then letter five played and then...um ever since radio played yah they have a great new drummer to bad i dont like there music, then oh my a band called lenix of something play....let me sum it up for u first 3 songs were kool....last 632098650865105305631534105374653075687654306754373975396707659673167596776535987319 songs were not, after a while i thought they played the same song over and over but they were good but it all sounds alike but yahthey were musicly really good but damn the best pitchers in the world change the pitch up lol that was for ellie and i hope that was rite. so then i wasnt sure on how to get home so i joined the carevan of camilo, and devons car. i was running on empty and was just running of fulems of my car lol ok ok but i was getting low and a little worried cause every gass station was closed when we drove by but i made it to pocomoke and filled up and then arbys was closed and we had to go pee so we went to walmart....and peed and i also thought i lost mt hat on the ride to pocomoke but luck me i found it in my pocket so that made me happy. then!!! i left everyone with a quick goodbye and started to drive home and damn i was tired! and i made it home and the puppy was awake and it smelled.so i took her out and she walked around for a bit and i came back in and it still smelled so ilooked in her cage and there was dookie all up in there araarrrgggg so then i clean it all up and now im here abut to die so i must try and make it to the 3rd floor ......goodnite...

oh yah and tomorrow is decaticated to 4 things number 1 ellie<3 number 2 homework 3 helping to make a side walk for mom and 4 music lesson

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 02:57:45 GMT

well how do i say is but life isnt so amazing rite now i just think im just sorta drifting thru but is that really a bad thing cause i am living and it could be worse, but yah its not enjoible(spellcheck) yah this week hasnt been very good i need something good to happen idk what school is slowly declining theres 2 things like i like well i love and that is number one ellie and number two music thank god for those things ugh yah comment please and make me happy someone maybe u will be something to make this week better ...thou probly no one will oh well woe is me lol

Not gonna see till my singing days are gone,
Not gonna hear until the fires have burned on,
Not gonna, no oh,
Not gonna, no oh,
Not gonna, no oh,
Till the singing days are gone

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 03:08:26 GMT

well i havent updated and it looks like no one has noticed or even cared? ehhh whatever sooo not much is up except i love ellie and school blows balls and im still workin on my music right now making drum tracks.and some vocals i hope i get new parts for my computer or the laptop so i can record soon and have a small cd come out that would really make me happy

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 16:56:51 GMT

im not sure whats going on anymore i feel like everything is a blur, i see things and i dont know how they happened im not sure how i could miss something to important to myself as i overlooked it and how it makes me feel bad about it and my days have become longer and these nites are shorter and it kills me with simple questions such as when why and how? one thing i need to do is wake up, sadly the sun aint shineing and the clouds arr out but i think its still a beautiful day even if my questions seem to have no answers and im still laying here waiting stracth that new question "now what?" whats gonna get in my way whats gonna bring me down and how will i surive? i dont know maybe just by keep on doing what im doing and beleiving in myself, cause i know she believes in me and so does he and a many more and if they dont i at least know she will believe in my and will stand by me, she gives me enough insperation to want to be better and to me my best for her and the world, its funny with some thing so great given to me such as love would make me be this way and will help surive, yes, but what about everything else, like old days when we owned the streets and when we were streetkids who lived on the streets and grown ups fear us cause cause we may have looked different or acted different than most people but when we were not the bad ones but they ones looks like good kids could be the bad kids but the streeets were our playground and onancock our kingdom, we had fun and it looked like it was never gonna end but as truth appears it has lost it, some there longer than others but all good memories ....new question! am i crazy?

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 21:32:37 GMT

so lately i have beens stressed out over school and the sols aka gay, its been a pain inmy ass and there is nothing else in my life new, except my new solo prject name "A Dakota Escape" so i have been workin on on my music thats been going good except i get writers blocks lk im bored so im gonna go

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 03:34:21 GMT

so yah its my last nite in Pa and im glad i have been loney as fuck and bored x-mas was kool and i got shoes, money and a table top synth which is way cool, and rite now my feet reak and stink like no tomorrow, im haveing ellie withdrawls, when i see any cuples it makes me think of her =( i saw king kong tonite and it was radi hope i can see ellie tomorrow or il die =( (and i mean, it no lie) im looking for something fun i guess to do for new years, aka let me know whats happening, and i have been on the road way to much this trip like i have traveled around world a couple times, i went to the mall acouple of times which was ok sorta gay .....i just wanta go home =(

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 04:29:50 GMT

so i went to audreys party tonite it was decent, nothing better to do and i was there with the best person in the world ellie (and if ur stupid and havent been reading my amazing lj for the last f'in year) yah so me and ellie had our 1st year, it was great she gave me alot of great things, i love that girl, end of discusion<3, my monkey in art is lookin very pimp sitting here by the computer 8) annnnnnddd i need to lighten up and try and have some more fun in my life, also i leave for pa tomorrow aka total gayness and il be going to bobs for the 1st nite and im challenging Ian to the lumber jack challenge at dennys, also .....oh wow im about to crash so the last note is that theres this girl, that i would die for a million times for her, she is my everything and she is my love and soulmate<3 ellie 12/18/04

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 22:06:11 GMT

well last nite i got all dressed up and went to the nutkracker with ellie and her mom and sister and watched it, it wasnt bad. today i went to work and then i did some errans like picking up ellies gift, and doing a few other things for tomorrow, i love ellie more than ever shes the best in the world i cant wait <3 and tonite im not sure whats going on yet but resting seems ok with me

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 01:37:33 GMT

i havent updated in forever, and i dont know why , im gonna work on some homework here in a few, and its almost the 18th <333333333333333333, and i have been lazy lately and i wanta see ellie and hold her and cuddle up lol i have been workin on this entry for 12 mins allready and havent gotten any where, i have been very blah this week i need something to lift my spirts Got any ideas?? (if u do u should comment)

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 01:55:16 GMT

I'm sure this is all gonna sound really ridiculous and uh... I don't exactly expect anyone to believe all this. Uh... for the last little while I've been kinda keeping correspondance with my sanity, and uhh… I really get the feeling that I’m starting to lose interest in the letter writing process. The pieces of the letters, they just get progressively shorter and shorter until it’s not even a reply. I uhh... the whole thing makes me really nervous. I just wish I could show you what a huge problem this is......I kind of have this... Really terrible habit of asking myself all these stupid questions, right? Like what if uhh… what if there's a spot on my body that I can touch to keep my heart from beating? or like what if, what if theres this uhh... stray bullet out there that’s gonna come through my window and take me out? like what if uhh... what if theres this huge unstoppable comet that’s just gonna like, destroy the earth and all of us? Like what... what if that’s happening right now? How can I avoid all these questions if I don't have that? Like, who is gonna be here? Why... who is gonna be there... in the hospital? Who is gonna tell me that all this is bullshit... its a dream? Just a dream.This is not a joke. And uhh... i'll never sleep.

lol yah!.... yah thats how i feel about updatin my live journal ....uhh minus the world blowing up and getting shit...but well i have wondered that before...uhh soo....does that make me crazy too??

is anyone really reading this? haha u might be crazy too 8)

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 05:08:53 GMT

so who decided to take my dinsey vault late night or early morning hour away ....its gay...i wanta watch baca or zorro yah well show today was fun and ellie came over =) shes amazing i love her shes the best<3

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 00:05:15 GMT

so it was a rainy day, and i really liked it, and i stayed after school to help in math, which was kool i guess i have a test tomorrow and jason my bro comes should be fun if i think of anything kool il repost

Sat, 19 Nov 2005 04:23:40 GMT

ellie came over tonite and it was great we cuddled and watched a movie and had fun =)

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 02:21:01 GMT

dear livejournal ...

i hate you

lol

posting is getting annoying and im not sure why i do it

maybe il post something later =/

-Colin-

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 21:38:24 GMT

concert was kool i said goodbye to mere and i told her to run as fast as she could and dont look back cause shes gonna go on a fun adventure good luck everyone needs one and everyone needs to find theres, so the concets was gooood treos killed it and alexisonfire was great fuck people who ever said they were bad live they were great i think that might have been one of the best concerts,

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 21:55:35 GMT

Happy birthday ellie <3333333333 i love you ur the best girl friend and person in the world <333 i love you

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 02:36:50 GMT

so yah today i hung at tylers and watched them have band practice it sounded good im extremely bored =( i hope i dont catch my bros cold and i need to rest cause im tired and have i ever said that im a dork yah well i am, my dog is whining , and yah so maybe il go save the world cause that something that makes me happy cause i could never do that in my real life gosh i hate dreaming of amazing things and it never happens i hate being a dreamer =/

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 03:56:39 GMT

so yah i went to school today and i finished my book and no one ever comments, and so school was gay, and i have been in, heard about, benn told about, seen fights this week fighting means something idk maybe a small penis..so yah whatever some one close to me once said " when u are fighting about something ask urself is it worth it? and then if so fight ur hardest but 78 percent of the time no its not..so relax, just chill out " ellies birthday is the 11th and thats friday!!!! so that should be great fun i got her a great gift i hope she likes it <3